mera janam handooras de laseeba naa de sheher vich hoya si. meriya chaar vaddiya bhena san te mai sunn nahi sakda si. sadda aandh-guaandh changa nahi si te asi bahut gareeb si. jado mai lagbhag chaar saala da si, taa kise ghar di chhatt to digan karke mere daddy ji di maut ho gayi. saddi zindagi hor vi aukhi ho gayi.

 mere mummy ji ne meri te meriya bhena di dekh-bhaal karan vich poori vaah laayi. par aksar ohna kol mere layi kappde khareedan layi paise nahi hunde san. jado meeh painda si, taa garam kappde na hon karke mai aksar thar janda si.

 vadda ho ke mai handooras sainat bhasha sikhi jis karke mai bole lokaa naal galbat kar sakda si. par mere mummy te bhena nu eh sainat bhasha nahi aaundi si. is karke oh mere naal sirf kujh hava-bhava atey apne vallo banaye isharya naal gall karde san. mere mummy mainu ihna isharya naal hi dassde san ki mai bure kamma to door raha, jive cigarette te sharaab peen to. oh mainu pyaar karde san atey mainu khatrya to bachauna chahunde san. is karke mai shukarguzar ha ki mai kade vi bure kamma vich nahi pya.

 jado mai chhota si, taa mere mummy mainu church lai ke jande san, par mainu uthe kujh vi samajh nahi aaunda si kyoki koi vi mainu sainat bhasha vich nahi dassda si. das saala di umar vich mai church jana band kar ditta kyoki mai uthe ja ke bor ho janda si. par mai rab bare hor jaan-na chahunda si.

 1999 vich jado mai 23 saala da si, taa amreeka to mainu ik aurat mili jo evangelical church jandi si. os ne mainu bible diya kujh galla sikhaiya atey mainu amareekan sainat bhasha vi sikhayi. mai bible vicho jo sikhya si, oh mainu bahut vadiya lagga. is karke mai padri bannan da faisla keeta te porto reeko chala gaya jithe bole lokaa nu padri bannan di sikhlayi ditti jandi si. jado mai 2002 vich laseeba vapas aaya, taa mai apne kujh dosta di madad naal bole lokaa layi ik church banaa sakya. ohna vicho ik da naa patricia si jis naal baad vich mai viah karaa lya.

 apne church da padri hon karke mai handooras sainat bhasha vich bhashan dinda hunda si. nale bole lokaa di madad karan layi mai bible kahaniya diya tasveera atey drame kar ke dikhaunda si. mai nerre-terre de kasbya vich bole lokaa nu hausla den atey ohna diya mushkla da hal karan vi janda si. mai taa missionary de taur te amreeka atey zambia vich vi gaya. darasal, mainu bible bare ziada nahi pata si. so mai ohna nu sirf ohi dassda si jo mainu dassya gaya si atey jo mainu tasveera to samajh aaunda si. asal vich, mere kayi savaal san.

 ik din church de kujh membra ne mere bare jhoothiya galla failauniya shuru kar dittiya. ohna ne keha ki mai sharaabi si atey apni patni nu dhokha ditta si. mai bahut pareshan si te mainu bahut gussa charhya. jaldi hi mai te patricia ne church jana chhadd ditta.

 yahovah de gavah aksar mainu te patricia nu milan aaunde san, par asi kade vi ohna di gall nahi suni. par church chhaddan to baad patricia ne taumas te leesi naa de jode naal study karni shuru kar ditti. mai is gall to barra prabhavit hoya ki bhave oh bole nahi san, par oh sainat bhasha jaande san. so kujh same baad mai vi study karan lagg pya.

 kujh mahine asi amareekan sainat bhasha diya video vart ke study keeti. par jado sadde kujh dosta ne keha ki yahovah de gavah insaani aaguaa de magar lagge han, taa asi bible study karni band kar ditti. bhave ki taumas ne mainu saboot ditte san ki yahovah de gavah insaani aaguaa de pichhe nahi chalde, par mai os diya galla ’te yakeen nahi keeta.

 kujh mahineya baad, jado patricia bahut ziada nirash ho gayi, taa os ne rab nu prarthna keeti ki yahovah de gavah dobara sadde ghar aaun. jaldi hi sadde guaandh vich rehen vali yahovah di ik gavah patricia nu milan aayi. os ne keha ki oh leesi nu sadde ghar aaun layi kahegi. leesi ne ik sache dost vang saath ditta. oh har hafte patricia nu hausla den atey os naal bible study karan layi aaundi hundi si. par mere mann vich aje vi gavaha bare shakk si.

 2012 vich yahovah de gavaha ne ik khaas muhim vich hissa lya. is muhim vich ohna ne handooras sainat bhasha vich kee tusi sachayi jaan-ni chahunde ho? naa di video dikhayi. leesi sadde layi is video di ik copy lai ke aayi. jado mai eh video dekhi, taa mai jaanya ki jehrriya galla mai sikhaunda hunda si, oh bible vicho nahi san, jive narak te amar aatma di sikhya. eh jaan ke mai hakka-bakka reh gaya.

 is to agle hafte mai taumas naal gall karan layi yahovah de gavaha de kingdom haal gaya. mai os nu keha ki mai bole lokaa nu bible bare sachayi sikhauni chahunda ha, par yahovah de gavah vajo nahi. mai bole lokaa layi apna nava te alag church banauna chahunda si. taumas ne mere josh karke meri tareef keeti. par fir os ne mainu afsiya 4:5 dikhaya jis vich is gall ’te zor ditta gaya hai ki masihi mandli vich ekta honi chaheedi hai.

 taumas ne mainu handooras sainat bhasha vich yahovah de gavah—nehcha diya zinda misala, bhaag 1: hanere to ujale val naa di video ditti. is video vich dikhaya gaya si ki kujh aadmiya ne bible diya bunyaadi sikhyaava nu samjhan layi kinne dhyaan naal bible di janch keeti. video dekhdya mai samajh sakda si ki ihna aadmiya ne kive mehsoos keeta hona. ihna aadmiya vang mai vi sachayi labh reha si. is video to mainu yakeen ho gaya ki gavah sachayi sikhaunde han kyoki ohna diya sikhyaava bible ’te aadhaarit han. is layi mai dobara to study karni shuru kar ditti atey 2014 vich mai te patricia ne yahovah de gavaha vajo baptisma lai lya.

 mainu yahovah de gavaha di mandli bahut pasand hai kyoki sadde parmeshwar vang eh vi shudh hai. parmeshwar de sevak changiya galla karde han atey doojya naal vadiya tareeke naal pesh aaunde han. oh shanti banaa ke rakhde han atey ik-dooje nu hausla dinde han. ohna vich ekta hai. bhave oh jehrre marzi desh vich rehnde han ja jehrri marzi bhasha bolde han, oh sarya nu bible to ikko jehi sikhya dinde han.

 mainu bible diya galla sikh ke maza aaya. misal layi, mai sikhya ki yahovah sarabshaktiman te att mahan parmeshwar hai. yahovah sare lokaa nu pyaar karda hai, chahe oh sunn sakde han ja nahi. mai is gall di kadar karda ha ki parmeshwar mainu pyaar karda hai. mai eh vi sikhya hai ki dharti baag vargi sohni bann javegi, asi tandrust hovange te hamesha di zindagi da anand maan sakange. mai is same da besabri naal intazar kar reha ha!

 mainu atey patricia nu bole lokaa naal bible bare gall kar ke bahut vadiya laggda hai. asi hun apne purane church de kujh membra naal bible di study karde ha. par mai hun jo sikhaunda ha, os bare mere mann vich koi savaal nahi hai, jidda ik same ’te padri vajo mere mann vich san. yahovah de gavaha naal study kar ke mainu mere savaala de javab mil gaye.